I have a dream. To get published in National Geographic.

Someday I will have a photograph in National Geographic!

How do I get into National Geographic?

I may not know how or when – but it will happen!

Last year I offered coverage at sporting events for parents to capture their kids in action!

I will be doing the same again this spring – based on availability!

Contact me @ dcbarden@gmail.com for rates and details!

We spent the EASTER weekend with my parents.

They are starting a farm and we spent some time with their cows!

We love our pup!

My mom and her baby calf!

I am loving this JERK CHICKEN NACHO dinner!

I made it again and forgot the peppers – but it was still YUMMY!

Might be my new specialty!

God has such an imagination – to make every little inch of this planet – and to make it so breathtakingly beautiful!

My parents have 13 hens – and fresh eggs each morning! YUM!

My gramma has taken to feeding the hens and they follow people around all the time!

My parents have a dog named Buddy – who does NOT like Schrute!

LOOK AT THAT FACE!

Schrute doesn’t sleep well at my parents so we were up at sunrise the day before Easter – I am so glad we were!

Thank you God for your beauty!

My parents have a game room that they had the youth group from AWC paint back in the day – I had put hand prints on the ceiling.

I realized over Easter that hand prints have a hole in the palm – as a reminder of what Jesus went through for us.

3.31.2009 was my last day at Phoenix Rehab – I cannot believe that I’ve been working as BARDEN PHOTOGRAPHY for one year!

I had 24 weddings in 2009 and 32 seniors for the class of 2010.

I captured so many families and babies – sweet family pets and little league games – engagements and pregnancies!

I LOVE this job – I LOVE my clients – I LOVE that this year is going to blow last year out of the water!

This year I have 27 weddings for 2010 and 6 on the books for next year – including my first destination wedding in TEXAS!

I would love to have 100 seniors for the class of 2011 and double my family sessions from last year!

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO EVERYONE who believed in me and prayed for me and trusted their memories with me!

BECAUSE OF YOU – I get to do what I love!

I took this photo of *E* that I took in May of 2007 and edited it a little bit!

Let’s hope that it’s here to stay!

On Thursday – March 18th – I saw Dr. Roberts in Wellsboro @ the OB/GYN center. Our miscarriage was on March 17th – so it seemed fitting to make an appt since it’s been a year.

I met with Dr. R and he asked me to tell him my history – which is pretty simple.

Started my period at 12 – normal 5 day cycles – went on BC 6 months before our wedding – got married – went off BC in Dec 08 – pregnant in Jan 09 – went to the doctor for our 1st ultrasound to find out that we had lost our baby – miscarried in March 09 and here we are.

For the last 5 months my cycles have been a few days off and really really heavy – don’t know what that’s about.

We went through the medications that Jared and I are on – he is healthy and I am healthy.

The doctor did an exam to rule out any Chlamydia or Gonorrhea problems – which I know there are none.

On Monday the 22nd I have an appointment with X-ray to run dye through my uterus and fallopian tubes to make sure there are no blockages.

This week we need to drop off a sample for Jared to rule out any problems with him.

On April 6th – 21 days into my cycle – I need to go to the lab to make sure that I am ovulating – which I am pretty sure I am from ovulation tests I took. But it will be nice to have a definite answer.

On April 22nd I have another appt with Dr. R to go over the test results and see what is or isn’t the next step we take.

He said that I have a very simple sexual history – Jared and I have only ever been with each other – and a very simple gynecological history and there is no reason why it shouldn’t be happening – especially since I got pregnant before.

He said 1/3 of the women he sees are pregnant within 3 months from the first appt they have – just because – another 1/3 have a problem that he can help them with – another 1/3 never get pregnant and there aren’t any answers.

He was very nice and very thorough – so now we just wait.

God already knows – whether or not we will have babies – we just have to wait … and wait ….

Thank you so much for the prayers everyone!

It still hurts my heart to see a pregnant woman or a baby. I am trying so hard to get over that. I am trying to be the friend that I cannot be to so many of my friends right now. I am trying to get over the anger I feel toward someone who hurt me being due the same week we were. It’s not fair. I am trying to understand that God knows what is best – He knew what our children would be like on the day I was born. He is holding our child in His arms right now as I type this and I know that there is NO BETTER PLACE FOR HIM – not even here in my arms. But the hurt is still so strong.

I am trying so hard to “stop trying” – but it’s 10 times easier said than done – especially when you want a child – want to be a mother – want to see your husband hold his child – as much as I do.

I have always wanted lots of kids – and now I find myself struggling for one.

But we continue to pray. We continue to trust. I am working on the hope part …