WAITING

Filed under: babes,baby barden,expecting,just because,kiddos,love,my family,newsworthy,schedule,word of God — admin at 3:36 am on Sunday, August 5, 2012

I have so much running through my mind. So many things I want to say and get out. This may be scattered – but I need to write.

Our doctor called today – on a Saturday – to talk to us about our ultrasound. He asked if I was bleeding yet. Yet. That word stuck out to me. I told him no. He said that the heartbeat looked slower than they would like to see. There was a tear and some bleeding under the sac. He didn’t want to give up hope – but …

It sucks. It hurts. I’m so sad. I’m not really angry anymore – I was the first time – for a LONG time. I was very angry at God. How could He. We’ve been nothing but good followers of Him – and this is what we get? We deserve better – we deserved a baby – we deserved to NOT lose a baby. It took me a long time to get over this. A long time.

When we got pregnant with Fitzy – I had given up hope. I had decided that Jared and I were gonna be fine with just the two of us – maybe I preferred it actually. Besides – we had Schrute and barden photography was booming – those would be my babies. Then out of nowhere – BAM. We get pregnant in the exact month I had told God that I could not get pregnant in. I was gonna go to Texas to shoot a wedding May 1st. Fitzy was born April 28th. Other than a little placenta previa – I had a perfect pregnancy. Morning sickness – sure. But that was pretty much it. And as far as deliveries go – it really was quick and kinda sorta as easy as it can kinda be? Other than the whole sleeping thing – he is a perfect and wonderful and happy and beautiful miracle in our lives. One that I never thought would be here.

Even as I sit here typing – I look at his perfect little face and can’t believe that he kinda belongs to us. That God loaned this miracle of a child to us. He trusted. Us.

So – again. I’m here with tears streaming down my face. Preparing myself to say goodbye to yet another baby that I won’t hold in this lifetime. I know what you’re saying – don’t give up so easily Danielle. I’m not. Really. But I’m a realist. I’m a “life is pain” kinda person. I get it. Life sucks sometimes. It is in no way fair. I prepare for the worst and then I am pretty happy in life when it’s NOT the worst.

Do I believe in miracles? Yes. ABSOLUTELY.

Do I feel that way that I felt with Fitzy this pregnancy. No. I had the migraines – but two or three of those were before I was even pregnant. I haven’t been sick. I’ve been exhausted – but I have a child who only needs the BARE minimum of sleep to get by and a ton of work to do. I’ve been really crampy – and not the crampy I was with Fitzy. I’ve been cautious. It’s the only way I know how to be.

Seeing that ultrasound yesterday eased my worries – but I would be lying if I told you I felt great afterwards. I was still cautious. I felt better – but not the best.

I’m sad. I’m just sad. Sad that we can’t enjoy pregnancy. Sad that we are always wondering and waiting – will it be like last time? Sad that I have friends I need to be happy for (call me selfish – that’s fine). Sad that all day long I think – wait – what was that? Am I bleeding now? Just sad.

I have no idea if any of this made sense. Blerg. I know that some of you out there might be reading this and thinking – hey Danielle – where’s your God now?

Oh – He’s here. And He loves me. And He loves Jared. And He loves Fitzy. And He loves this little baby struggling to hold on. Just because I’ve decided to love God and follow Him – doesn’t mean that life is easy – in my opinion it’s SO MUCH HARDER than choosing not to. I’ve written before that Jared and I have been through what most married people don’t go through in 16 years of marriage in just half that. It hasn’t been easy. But it would be MUCH harder without God.

So – thanks to all of you praying. Thanks to all of you holding us. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

COMING IN MARCH OF 2013

Filed under: babes,baby barden,bardenisms,birth,just because,love,my family,newsworthy,schedule — admin at 3:31 pm on Friday, August 3, 2012

This morning we had an ultrasound.

I thought I was about 8 weeks along – turns out – not so much. The tech figured about 6 weeks and 4 days.

Either way – we got to see a teeny baby!

I saw a little heartbeat on the screen and my heart skipped a beat! That baby is TEENY TINY and it has a heartbeat already! God is SO good!

When it does come time to reveal whether baby is a boy or a girl – the name will be kept a secret this time – considering all the grief we got with Fitzy!

I have been so cautious and preparing myself for the worst – it’s nice to breathe a little easier!

Keep those prayers coming for a healthy baby and healthy pregnancy – I appreciate you all SO MUCH!

In light of our family growing – another change has to be made.

I HAVE to cut back on photography. HAVE TO.

That being said – I will not be taking clients during the months of March – April – May – June of 2013. UNLESS we already have your wedding scheduled OR you are a baby package client that needs photos during one of those months – in which case I hope to connect with you today!

I will ONLY be taking portrait sessions from current clients – any new clients that contact me I will refer to some AMAZING local photographers that I know! With the exceptions of seniors and new babies – but those will be VERY limited! It’s really hard for me to say no – but I’m gonna have to start. I can do 1 wedding a month and no more than 5 sessions a month.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE my job – but like I’ve said before – I love my family more and with another sweet baby – I need to prioritize my life!

THANK YOU AGAIN for all your support and prayers and love!

NEW CHAPTER

Filed under: bardenisms,blog update,just because,newsworthy,schedule,website update — admin at 2:54 pm on Saturday, January 30, 2010

A new chapter is starting for BARDEN PHOTOGRAPHY!

I am offering some new services, a community outreach contest, and an additional photographer.

Lots of you know that KT joined us this year – booking 11 weddings for 2010 so far!

If I am booked for your wedding – you have the option to still use barden photography and KT will be your photographer.

KT now has her own blog and her own schedule! If you would like to inquire about KT’s prices – jot me an email!

You will also notice that the banner has changed at the top of the website – if not you might need to refresh – focusing on seniors.

Mandy & Jason – thank you so much for being my cover models these past few months!

Melissa – welcome as the new face of barden photography!

I am so excited about senior photos this year! I have already surpassed my over 30 goal – and that was for the class of 2010.

My goal for the class of 2011 is … 100 seniors – from any and all surrounding schools!

I only have about 2 open dates for weddings this year and already have 4 for 2011!

KT has lots of open dates for 2010 – check out her schedule if you are interested!

As I look ahead at the future of barden photography I am humbled and amazed that I have the support of so many of YOU!

BRIDAL EXPO – DAY ONE

Filed under: bardenisms,just because,marry me,newsworthy,schedule,SWAG,wedding — admin at 7:23 am on Saturday, January 9, 2010

Yesterday was GREAT! We didn’t see as many couples as we would have liked to but it was a Friday and the weather was a little shady.

We got there at 9.30ish and set up the booth – WHICH LOOKS SO SHARP! I will TRY to remember to take my camera and get some shots!

We had 17 brides register for our FREE SWAG!

We booked a wedding on 9.25.2010 for KT – thanks again Miranda!

We booked another wedding for me on 6.13.2010 – a Sunday wedding at … BELHURST CASTLE! AHHHHHHH!!!! Thanks again so much Elizabeth!!!!!!

The coordinators from the mall told me that our booth looked really sharp and they would make a note in their books for next year about it!

We got home around 10.15ish where I promptly lost my voice – waking up to realize that I have INDEED lost it for sure – I cannot speak above a whisper – thank goodness for KT and her translating!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE SUPPORT FROM MY FORMER CLIENTS that stopped by – you guys are AMAZING!

Special thanks to Mandy for bringing her sweetness Leah and letting me yoink her for a bit!

HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE TODAY OR TOMORROW!

SO IT BEGINS …

Filed under: bardenisms,schedule — admin at 4:31 pm on Friday, September 25, 2009

Here is my schedule for the next three weeks …

Sat 26 – wedding in Williamsport

Sun 27 – engagement session @ 4 in Elmira

Mon 28 – secretary at Phoenix – family session @ 5.30

Tues 29 – family session @ 4

Wed 30 – secretary @ Phoenix

Thurs 1 – secretary @ Phoenix

Fri 2 – chiro @ 9.30 in Athens – wedding @ 5 in Elmira

Sat 3 – wedding in Towanda/Owego

Sun 4 – child session @ 3 – family session @ 4

Mon 5 – secretary at Phoenix

Tues 6 – senior session x 2 @ 4

Wed 7 – senior session @ 3

Thurs 8 – senior session @ 4

Fri 9 – EDIT EDIT EDIT

Sat 10 – wedding in Lawrenceville

Sun 11 – *was our due date* – possible family session

Mon 12 – family session @ 4

Tues 13 – EDIT EDIT EDIT

Wed 14 – maternity session @ 11.30

Thurs 15 – EDIT EDIT EDIT

Fri 16 – EDIT EDIT EDIT

Sat 17 – toddler session @ 11 – family session @ 4

Sun 18 – family session @ 9 – wedding @ 2 in Mansfield

then it picks right back up from there!

BRIDAL EXPO

Filed under: marry me,newsworthy,schedule,wedding — admin at 12:59 pm on Thursday, January 8, 2009

REMEMBER THE BRIDAL EXPO @ THE ARNOT MALL

FRIDAY 10 to 930

SATURDAY 10 to 930

SUNDAY 11 to 6

MY BOOTH IS ACROSS FROM THINGS REMEMBERED

YOU HAVE 4 CHANCES TO WIN AN HOUR ENGAGEMENT SHOOT FROM BARDEN PHOTOGRAPHY

I WILL HAVE MY PORTFOLIOS, PRINTS, CANVAS PRINTS, COLLAGES, BUSINESS CARDS, AND PACKAGE INFORMATION

NOT TO MENTION FORMER BARDEN PHOTOGRAPHY BRIDES !!!

Schedule update …

Filed under: schedule — admin at 10:27 pm on Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Nov 8th – wedding in Wellsboro

Nov 16th – couple in Mansfield

Nov 22nd – wedding in Athens

Nov 29th – newborn in Mansfield

Nov 29th – family in Mansfield

Nov 30th – family in Wellsboro

Jan 9th, 10th, and 11th – BRIDAL EXPO at the Arnot Mall

Feb 4th to the 8th – FLORIDA for Layne and Zach’s wedding!

MARCH – expectation for BARDEN PHOTOGRAPHY to be full time

May 2nd – wedding in Athens

May 3rd – possible wedding

May 30th – wedding in Troy

June 6th – wedding in Athens

June 12th – wedding in Wellsboro

June 13th – wedding in Troy

July 11th – wedding in Williamsport

July 17th – possible wedding

July 25th – wedding in Athens

August 1st – possible wedding

August 8th – wedding in Galeton

October 3rd – wedding in Gettysburg

Upcoming schedule -

Filed under: bardenisms,schedule — admin at 6:07 pm on Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Sat 18th – 11 AM -ENGAGEMENT

Sat 18th – 145 PM – GC for 1st BIRTHDAY

Sat 18th – 4 PM – SENIOR SESSION

Sun 19th – 1 PM – TOT SESSION

Sun 19th – 4 PM – SENIOR SESSION

Tues 21st – 530 PM – FAMILY SESSION

Sat Nov 8th – WEDDING

Fri Sat Sun Jan 9 10 11 – WEDDING EXPO AT THE ARNOT MALL

Thank You Jesus for all the business – keep it coming !!