I am so thankful for my God – my husband – my family – my friends – my Schrutie – my job. Oh so thankful!
I am continuing the 2010 = HOPE prayer and will be for the whole year – I just might need some help!
If you know me – you know that I am NOT an optimist! It is something that is very hard for me to do – look on the up side of things.
I like to imagine lines in heaven when we are babies in the womb. There are lines for patience – worry – common sense – optimism – and so on. Sometimes I like to think that the worry and anxiety lines needed price checks and I got hung up there! I had every intention of getting some patience and trust and optimism – but the lines were close before I got there.
I am trying to be hopeful – without getting my hopes up – because the more I get my hopes up – the harder they fall.
I really thought with every fiber of my being that we would have a baby in our arms right now – if not that – we would be pregnant. We do not have a baby in our arms. We are not pregnant. I am impatient. I am confused. I am thinking way too much and it hurts.
In May I will be 29. I never imagined I would have an established business. I imagined I would have lots of babies.
Like I said – I LOVE BEING A PHOTOGRAPHER – oh how I love it – but oh how I would love being a mother.
I am thankful that I get to photograph women with miracles in their bellies.
I am thankful that I get to love all these little newborns and watch them grow.
It is very hard for me to think of the things that I am thankful for – but I have all of you to hold me accountable for that – and I am thankful!
I am VERY thankful for my blog readers and clients.
Thank you so much for opening your lives and your homes to me – it is so awesome to be able to watch your families grow.
Thank you for opening up my blog and reading about my hopes and fears and dreams.