*K* graduated from AAHS this year – 11 years after I graduated! Makes me feel so old!!

I had sessions in Athens and was staying the night with the rents so I brought my camera to graduation.

LOVE THOSE GIRLS!!

It was so great to be able to capture these moments for you *K* – reach for the stars!!

Not much has changed since May 26th of last year – other than I’m a year older.

But – this is the last year that I will be celebrating my real age! I will be 29 again next year and the year after that!

My dear friend Trudence had flowers delivered to me for my birthday – that I used in a session that very day!

My sister sent me a care package with some goodies in it! Do you remember those little pills with dinosaur sponges that expand when you put them in water? She sent me some of those too!

Thank you for all the birthday wishes!!!

I am blessed with AMAZING in-laws.

They are such wonderful people! I love you both!

We spent the EASTER weekend with my parents.

They are starting a farm and we spent some time with their cows!

We love our pup!

My mom and her baby calf!

My Aunt Lori – my kindred spirit – writes her own blog – you NEED to check it out – especially today!

http://lorihoose.wordpress.com/

Thank you so much Jesus for Your sacrifice – for Your love that is unlike ANY other!

Take this Good Friday to reflect – to thank – to love – to repent.

On Thursday – March 18th – I saw Dr. Roberts in Wellsboro @ the OB/GYN center. Our miscarriage was on March 17th – so it seemed fitting to make an appt since it’s been a year.

I met with Dr. R and he asked me to tell him my history – which is pretty simple.

Started my period at 12 – normal 5 day cycles – went on BC 6 months before our wedding – got married – went off BC in Dec 08 – pregnant in Jan 09 – went to the doctor for our 1st ultrasound to find out that we had lost our baby – miscarried in March 09 and here we are.

For the last 5 months my cycles have been a few days off and really really heavy – don’t know what that’s about.

We went through the medications that Jared and I are on – he is healthy and I am healthy.

The doctor did an exam to rule out any Chlamydia or Gonorrhea problems – which I know there are none.

On Monday the 22nd I have an appointment with X-ray to run dye through my uterus and fallopian tubes to make sure there are no blockages.

This week we need to drop off a sample for Jared to rule out any problems with him.

On April 6th – 21 days into my cycle – I need to go to the lab to make sure that I am ovulating – which I am pretty sure I am from ovulation tests I took. But it will be nice to have a definite answer.

On April 22nd I have another appt with Dr. R to go over the test results and see what is or isn’t the next step we take.

He said that I have a very simple sexual history – Jared and I have only ever been with each other – and a very simple gynecological history and there is no reason why it shouldn’t be happening – especially since I got pregnant before.

He said 1/3 of the women he sees are pregnant within 3 months from the first appt they have – just because – another 1/3 have a problem that he can help them with – another 1/3 never get pregnant and there aren’t any answers.

He was very nice and very thorough – so now we just wait.

God already knows – whether or not we will have babies – we just have to wait … and wait ….

Thank you so much for the prayers everyone!

It still hurts my heart to see a pregnant woman or a baby. I am trying so hard to get over that. I am trying to be the friend that I cannot be to so many of my friends right now. I am trying to get over the anger I feel toward someone who hurt me being due the same week we were. It’s not fair. I am trying to understand that God knows what is best – He knew what our children would be like on the day I was born. He is holding our child in His arms right now as I type this and I know that there is NO BETTER PLACE FOR HIM – not even here in my arms. But the hurt is still so strong.

I am trying so hard to “stop trying” – but it’s 10 times easier said than done – especially when you want a child – want to be a mother – want to see your husband hold his child – as much as I do.

I have always wanted lots of kids – and now I find myself struggling for one.

But we continue to pray. We continue to trust. I am working on the hope part …

I met with Emily last week and took some quick photos of her little sweetness *A*.

She is so sweet!

I love that last shot!

Liza made me some tutu’s to use for my sessions. I have a 6 month red, a 12 month hot pink, a 3 y/o pink/red/hot pink combo, and a 6 y/o black!

If you want a tutu – or personalized t-shirt – check out www.memdezines.com – she has LOTS of different handmade products!

Thanks again Liza!

Thank you too Emily – I had a great visit and can’t wait for her 6 month session next month!

I had some time to kill so I went to visit Heather with her sweet baby *B*!

He is the sweetest thing!

Oh – he is so handsome!

We spent Christmas with Jared’s parents this year – mine were in Kentucky visiting my brother and his wife!

We spent the night Christmas Eve and opened a few gifts in the morning – our gift this year was the cruise!

We spent the day reading and watching cheesy Christmas movies – the best kind of holiday!

This was from my post last Christmas – next Christmas we are looking forward to spending it with Schrute and hopefully another new addition by that time or the anticipation of one!

It breaks my heart. This Christmas I thought – I really really thought we were expecting – finding out yesterday we weren’t. Ugh.

I thought I would post a picture of Schrute from last Christmas – a month before we got him!

LOOK AT THAT FACE – THAT TEENY LITTLE FACE!

This was taken yesterday –

Look at that NOT so teeny face!

Oh Schrute – how we love you and how you have blessed us this year – coming into our lives at the EXACT moment we needed you!

I hope everyone had a warm, love-filled Christmas!

We went on vacation with Jared’s parents at the beginning of the month – to the BAHAMAS!

Usually we go to the beach with them in July but this year with my wedding schedule – it didn’t work out.

We left on Sunday the 6th out of Rochester – and boy do I hate flying – but it wasn’t too bad this time.

It was cold and snowy … couldn’t wait until we were in the WARM WATERS of the BAHAMAS!

Our cabin!

Where we hung out at Coco Cay – the BEST part of the trip!

Our little towel buddy!

The sunset on the last night of our vacation!

We had a great time – Jared and I were both pretty motion sick and I missed dinner 2 nights out of 4 – but we had a fun time with the best in-laws I could ever ask for!