I have an appointment this morning to make sure that I am indeed ovulating. I then meet with Dr. Roberts again on the 22nd of this month to go over the results of everything thus far.

We had some not so good news a few weeks ago regarding a test and need a miracle. Babies are miracles anyway – the fact that so many things need to be perfect to conceive at a given moment.

I still feel my heart tug when I see a pregnant woman or hold a newborn baby. I choke back the emotions that are welling up to the surface.

I trust that God’s will is perfect and He knows what is best for us. I have faith that He will apply His will to our lives.

Hoping that includes a child – is the hardest part.

When I get my hopes up – each month it’s a harder fall than the month before when we aren’t pregnant.

I appreciate everyone’s prayers – so much! Mostly I need prayers to accept what is and be joyful.