Myotronics …

Filed under: TMJ — admin at 4:06 pm on Tuesday, July 8, 2008

www.myotronics.com – Yesterday I met with Dr. Robinson in Lewisburg – he had some answers. Check out the Myotronics link – he thinks that I do have cartilage left in my jaw – YAY – the NTI splint that I have been using for the past year and a half has done nothing but given me more damage and a worse bite. The splint that he wants to make is one that goes along the bottom teeth that I wear 24/7/365 except eating and cleaning it. He does a few sessions with TENS unit work to relax the jaw and put it into proper alignment. He thinks – cannot guarantee – that this can and will help me. He gave me the numbers of some former patients – with their permission of course – and I spoke with them today – they say it remains to be life changing. The one woman had TMJ pain for 30 years – THIRTY YEARS – and after a week of this device she was pain-free and remains to be. There is one catch – the price tag – it is QUITE STEEP – quite a bit more than the $1000 that I was quoted in KOP – and I just made the decision to make the plunge and buy a new camera – a 40D Canon – which now might be returned to the store with this new option. I have a lot of decisions to make – in a short amount of time. I would love all your prayers – I have been praying over and over and over for a miracle. It has been a rough two years – especially the last few months and weeks and days – where it seems all I do is cry – and I can’t even begin to think that there might be an end in sight. It is overwhelming and exciting. 

Prayer …

Filed under: TMJ — admin at 8:26 pm on Sunday, July 6, 2008

I don’t know how many of you read my blog on a normal basis – but I have a request.

Tomorrow – July 7th – I am going to yet another TMJ doctor for some answers – hope – help. I have been nothing but discouraged these past few months – so I come to my readers asking for prayer and a miracle. If you could believe with me that God will heal me – that would be great.

Love – d.

This is the air I breathe …

Filed under: TMJ,word of God — admin at 9:54 am on Thursday, June 5, 2008

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your Holy presence
Living in me

This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very Word
Spoken to me

And I … I’m desparate for You
And I … I’m lost without You
This is air I breathe
This is air I breathe
Your Holy presence
Living in me

This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very Word
Spoken to me

And I … I’m desparate for You
And I … I’m lost without You
And I … I’m desparate for You
And I … I’m lost without You

And I … I’m desparate for You
And I … I’m lost without You
I’m lost without You
I’m lost without You
I’m lost without You
I’m lost without You

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe

God – this is my prayer. This song chokes me up every time I hear it. Last night I had a breakdown moment in regard to my jaw. I cried and cried and cried some more after work. I am so tired. I am so frustrated. I am so discouraged. I know that God keeps promises. I know that I am His child. I know that He loves me. I cried and told Jared my thoughts, my fears, my doubts, my feelings. We prayed, we cried out to God.

We had PowerKidz last night and after our usual prayer time the kids asked how my jaw was – which resorted me to tears again (and again as I sit here and type this). They all laid their little hands on me and cried out to God with Jared and I. Their passion and love and innocence moved me. They are all so dear to me and their faith – so believing – inspires me.

As I sat with them last night believing for healing – I sit here today still in pain – still believing.

Thanks PK – you guys mean more to me than you know.

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Waiting. Knowing.

Filed under: bardenisms,TMJ — admin at 10:00 am on Friday, May 16, 2008

When I was little I knew I wanted to grow up to be one thing. A mother. I always imagined myself having children much earlier that what it seems it will be. When I sit down and think about having babies, I nearly panic. What happens when you don’t know what to do, what happens when they get hurt, what happens when you are responsible for this tiny life and you make mistakes? I’ve come to the conclusion that if everyone sat down and thought long and hard about having kids, no one would actually do it. It is crazy and yet – I imagine – is the most rewarding experience ever. Lately, I have been thinking about it more and more. When I get to the point that I think I can deal – physically – with being a mother, my jaw reminds me that I can’t. I know that there are people out there that are in more pain and turmoil than me – and they do it.

I’m writing – babbling – today to ask you to pray for me.

For those of you who don’t know what I am talking about – I have TMJ – pretty severe. In the spring of 2006 I had a LOT of stress in my life. I started to experience headaches, sinus pain, numbness, tingling, panic attacks – you name it. I went to my family docs and they put me on sinus medications and steroids – with no results. Finally I had my mom – cus we all need our moms sometimes – come over and take me to the doctor. He told me to open my mouth as wide as I could – 20 pops later he told me that I was more than likley experiencing TMJ. He referred me to the only “specialist” in the region. He took X-rays and told me that my jaw was arthritic and deteriorating – I had no cartlidge left to work with. He gave me a muscle relaxer – which is only a monthly relief- and a night splint to sleep with. I gave up gum, candies, steak – anything that required immense amounts of chewing. The pain subsided and stayed at a level of bearable for a while. I would have good days and bad days. The “specialist” told me there wasn’t really a lot that could be done. I left myself with that answer. Life was miserable at some points. I thank God for putting a STRONG – LOVING – WONDERFUL man into my life that has been through it all with me.

Anyway. I am back to being miserable and in pain almost all the time. I was so excited at the prospect of maybe starting a family soon – but when I can barely manage to make it through the day – I don’t let the thought even seep in.

I know in my heart of hearts that God will heal me. I don’t know how – but I know that He will. I am asking you – my readers, my family, me friends – to pray with me. Pray for me. I want to start a family more than anything I can think of – but I want to be pain-free and be able to manage having children.

Thank you and God bless you.

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