I’ve had a few people tell me to check out this song – my sister-in-law Jessica recently told me to listen to it – because it must be meant for me.<\/p>\n
It describes exactly how I feel. I would love to tell you that I am doing great. That I am happy. I’m not. I’m working on it – slowly.<\/p>\n
I approach my 29th birthday with the same feelings as last year – I am not pregnant. I am not a mother (on this earth). I am not even close to seeing it happening.<\/p>\n
I’m done.<\/p>\n
Done counting days. Done figuring out when is the “prime” time. Done hoping that every month I’ll take a test that comes out positive. I’m just done.<\/p>\n
I’m working on being happy. I’m working on being a good wife instead of imagining about being a good mother. I’m working on capturing precious moments for others since God has given me this talent. I’m working on finding my own precious moments. Appreciating the husband who loves me – no matter what. The puppy who rests his head on my heart and depends on me. The family who loves me and supports me. The friends that surround me. The Jesus who laid down His life for me.<\/p>\n
I’ve had numerous people tell me they are proud of how strong I’m being. I don’t see it. I think I get weaker and weaker as each day – moment – passes. So thank you.<\/p>\n
So – I’m done. Done hoping. I’m not giving up hope – just done hoping.<\/p>\n
I have unanswered prayers
\nI have trouble I wish wasn’t there
\nAnd I have asked a thousand ways
\nThat You would take my pain away
\nThat You would take my pain away<\/p>\n
I am trying to understand
\nHow to walk this weary land
\nMake straight the paths that crookedly lie
\nOh Lord, before these feet of mine
\nOh Lord, before these feet of mine<\/p>\n
When my world is shaking
\nHeaven stands
\nWhen my heart is breaking
\nI never leave Your hands<\/p>\n
When You walked upon the Earth
\nYou healed the broken, lost, and hurt
\nI know You hate to see me cry
\nOne day You will set all things right
\nYea, one day You will set all things right<\/p>\n
When my world is shaking
\nHeaven stands
\nWhen my heart is breaking
\nI never leave Your hands<\/p>\n
Your hands
\nYour hands that shape the world
\nAre holding me, they hold me still
\nYour hands that shape the world
\nAre holding me, they hold me still<\/p>\n
When my world is shaking
\nHeaven stands
\nWhen my heart is breaking
\nI never leave You when…<\/p>\n
When my world is shaking
\nHeaven stands
\nWhen my heart is breaking
\nI never leave…
\nI never leave Your hands<\/p>\n
JJ Heller<\/p>\n
I know that I am in Your hands Jesus. That You are in control.<\/p>\n
I trust God. I have faith that God will complete His will in my life – our life. I have a hard time hoping that plan includes a baby. That is where I am stuck!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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