I had been doing well – I wrote my letter to Enoch – knowing that we will see him in heaven.<\/p>\n
Ten days went by and I hadn’t cried – I hadn’t really doubted our happiness or our lives – and then it started again.<\/p>\n
One of our friends told us they were pregnant again – then another – and the anger returned.<\/p>\n
Another couple we know is pregnant and now- five minutes ago – I found out about another.<\/p>\n
I am so happy for our friends and pray for their pregnancies – but the anger just takes over.<\/p>\n
I am so angry – not at the momma’s and daddy’s – not at God anymore – just ANGRY!<\/p>\n
Please pray for me. Pray for us. I am so discouraged each month when I find out that we aren’t pregnant – another month of trying – gone.<\/p>\n
I need hope – I am so afraid to hope – to even think that it might ever happen again – that we might have a pregnancy that doesn’t end in a loss.<\/p>\n
I am watching all my friends hold my dreams in their hands … and I am losing hope …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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